HI.
Yea.
Hi....
I sit here with many things running through my head. Past, present and a bit of future. All colliding like one big plate of chinese food off my favorite buffet. (though I dont eat them often these days, just the occasional Hunans trip) But the flavor and colors are still so nice.
Anyways, so I have met a girl. Yea a girl. I like her. A L O T. Hell where would I even start to begin on how great she is; and even greater knowing that she has shown me that in the past I put up with a lot of shit from those who are now graves in my life that is a cemetery. (thats alot to spit out;especially those who are so full of shit that they turn their imaginations into reality) She is so great. She loves to spend time with me. STAY with me. HOLDS me....as I hold her to. And yet I am still the same loving cuddle freak that I have always been...and she loves and appreciates that. YES. A-P-P-R-E-C-I-A-T-E-S me. I guess that is what happens when you are mature. You treat a relationship like you should. A priority. Not this 'having to talk to me everyday is obsessive' crap! Or the old high school set up. HA. She got humor outta all that too. As I still do. Mind you I am still a different person. Oh have I learned! And realized much as well. That relationships ARENT supposed to be a roller coaster of emotions. I saw that a bit ago, and was strengthened lately even more! NO ONE should have to go through all that bullshit. But sometimes the blind lead the blind. Never will I lead into anything blindly again. Or foolish like. I took me years to figure stuff out. Well losing some weight has helped too....(that is a different subject I will have to talk about to! The difference is amazing) And this time around I have found someone without thinking I needed someone. This just kind of happened. Its so controlled. So natural. So.....awesome!
SOOOOO. She is wonderful. She dont even mind calm P D A. (public display of affection) What a difference! Im so excited and happy. I cant wait to see where things between us go. We spend UBER amounts of time together. And neither of us get sick of it. Thats new too. Cheese and rice (her favorite line) she is so funny. She laughs at me all the time. She apparently thinks I am funny. Well you all know I am a weird random mother fucker. (yer mom still owes me money btw) Anyways point is, and trust me I have a great girlfriend. And this time I know it. Im serious. She is. She doesnt pretend with me. She just is this sweet. She is realistic. OOOoooOoOOOoO. Cool huh? I know I love this girl. I just am careful about the word and meaning these days. I am sure she does to. But when the time is right.....
What else in my awesome world is going on? HMMMMM. Let me see. Work is still stupid. THE END on that. Um, I quit Taekwondo for now. Some reasons are due to the fact that I have been around martial arts most my life thanks to my dad, and I want something that also gives me some emotional and mental connection. Tae doesnt. Especially in this day and age. Im not gonna go into all of that though. I may go back or I may take Judo instead. I would like to find Aikido ultimately. Well I stopped Tae due to the fact that I am focusing on just lifting and working out. I have my own personal trainer. He is also a good friend of mine for many years. We motivate ourselves, more him since he is the pro, and he makes me work harder than I have ever. I am feeling great these days. Im getting stronger(in more than one way) and hella confident. Also to make things even better is the fact he is teaching me to box. He was a golden glove for about 12 years I think it was. I am learning about vitamins, supplements and other secrets of the trade..in a legal and healthy way. I am at the gym uptown about 3 or 4 times a week. And I love it! Its all part of my plan. I still havent reached 165 pounds yet....I am stuck at 180. Partly due to the muscle mass keeps it balanced too. Ill choke a bitch. About a year. And I wanna be in a tough man. Still got aways to go. But each day brings me that much closer.
I miss you Dana. I miss Foo-g, Eric and the rest of the gang(my other family). Brian my cuz, I love ya. Mum, you are the greatest!!
In summary, life is fucking incredible. I still tell people to fuck off or kiss my ass. If I deem you unimportant, than you are. Outta sight outta mind. Mind over matter. I dont mind, cause you dont matter. Haha. Thanks to wonderful Sarah for being in my life. She is another reason I rest at ease, and why things are grande!
Oh and lastly. And one more special message before I should go, an then Im done so I can go home...(love myself better than you; thanks Nirvana)
That little stunt about coming to my place of employment and sucking the face of your boyfriends head, was not only disgusting, it was immature, tacky and very embarrassing...for you. Everyone saw it and 4 people managed to tell me about it within five minutes of me getting to work the next day. Some nerve. I guess some things will never change, like never growing up. Dont ever do anything like that again. Better yet please do. Makes you look cheap.
THE END
Oh yea.
*ninja vanish*
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